well first of all.
shit you i cannot keep pretending that it's fine every single time you come at me and be a complete ass just because you know i will keep standing here for you. six days left.
every single day i am counting down to clearing you off because I KNOW YOU ARE NOT GOING TO SHARE HOW STUPID DO YOU THINK I AM .
i can  stay as fake as i want these six days but i know for sure that i want my answer and every. single. day i steel my heart and cry alittle less, so that when the time comes for me to clear our friendship off my heart, it'd have been buried by these 168 hours of waiting and misery and after that you can screw yourself and your 1600 friends on facebook.
anger hides sadness one day i might stop lying to myself and cry.
that day will be the day you kick yourself because i will be crying on someone else's shoulder, chia.

Don't tell me how to be real ,
I never lost myself that way ,
I'm afraid that I'll start pretending .
My heart is a little heavy
I fall in love with anyone that makes me smile unknowningly
It doesnt matter to me anymore, what others think.
I'm vaguely turning into an anorexic .
Don't let me think of you , you're obviously not into me .
I am too stressed.
I hate it when people say I love you and don't mean it .
Okay enough off my chest night hotties
xx.

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